Considering Suicide? Please Talk To Me First!
I've spent hundreds of hours talking with people who've considered what you're considering. I've helped many.....if not most. Inspite of my efforts, I did lose someone a few years ago I thought I was helping so I realize how serious the situation can get. Please promise me before you carry out any suicidal plan, you at least give me a chance to talk to you. Help is only an E-mail away! Please put "I'm In Trouble" in the subject line. Tell me anything and everything you want to tell me. Give as little or as much information as you wish. Even if you write 10,0000 words I promise you I will read every single one of them! I promise you I will respond to any and all e-mails you send me! You may think no one in this world cares about what you're going through. You're wrong....I care!
If you don't want to talk to me then join the forum worldhairloss.org and start a thread. Tell people how you feel. Tell people what you are thinking. There are loads of people on that forum going through the same thing you're going through. They will help you.
Several years ago my family experienced a real tragedy. My son's fiancee was murdered in a drive by shooting. They'd been together for three years. She was my son's first love. She was a beautiful person inside and out. So full of life.....so effervescent. She was always "hanging out" at our house. We had many many hours of fun and laughter with her and we felt that she was every bit a part of our family. Then all of a sudden she was shot and killed for no reason what so ever. Needless to say this hit my son and our family very hard.
A few days after this incident I was up late at night. I couldn't sleep and I had no one to talk to. I felt so totally distraught over this event. With no one to turn to I put up a thread on a hairloss related message board explaining what had happened and how badly I felt. I must have gotten 25 posts of condolences and words of encouragement from friends I had developed on that forum. It really helped me through a very difficult time.
The internet has changed the world for the better. You're never alone as long as you have internet access. There are people out there that can help you through difficult times. Worldhairloss.org is a place to find some of them. There are some really good people on that forum. I am an editor, moderator, and member of that site and forum. I know how hard we work to carefully weed out the unfriendly people in this world.
I can't say that I've ever really seriously considered suicide but I can say there have been times when I felt mighty low.
Perhaps if I relay an interesting story that happened to me you might take some comfort in it. It took place almost 24 years ago. I had lost my decent job and was forced to take a job as a pizza delivery man. I was on my 9th hour of work. It was late at night. I was driving back to the pizza shop from a delivery. I was tired and very very depressed. I said to myself, "boy life sure isn't turning out like I thought it would". I was 28 years old, had no money, no career, no real job prospects, my car was a pile of junk and I was losing my hair gradually. I could see no real way out of my current situation. I looked down at the speedometer and noticed I was getting low on gas so I pulled into the nearest gas station that was open. I walked up to the booth and asked the clerk for $5 worth of regular. As I raised my head to actually look at the clerk, I could tell she was a person with Down Syndrome. She was definitely a very unattractive woman. Yet despite her disability, her unattractiveness, her obvious shortcomings, she gave me the sweetest smile. Then said "Hi....Thank you". It was a smile I will never forget. A smile like she was very happy to have this little job of her's as the clerk of a crummy gas station in the middle of the night! A smile like she was so happy to see me and wait on me.
As I walked away I began to feel really guilty about being so depressed. I thought to myself "what gives me the right to be so depressed when that woman, who has virtually nothing going for her, has the guts to be happy". I guess what I am trying to say is no matter how bad you think you may have it, there are other people in this world who have it far worse.
Perhaps it would help a bit if you stopped for a moment to count your blessings.
E-mail me if you need me!
Below is a link to a website that lists a multitude of suicide hotlines that are open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Help is only a phone call away. There are people that care about you!
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